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The Secret Lives of Catholic Girls

2005-04-19T20:20:18-08:00

Author: Zilindico
Category: General
Language: English, Fiction Rated: T
Genres: Tragedy
Chapters: 1, Words: 914, Reviews: 3 Updated: 4-19-05, Published: 4-19-05
Status: Complete

A girl killed herself. That's what everyone's saying. All the rumors say so? Is it true she was a lesbian? Did she - what was - tell me! - Rating for language and content.

The Girl Who Changed The Stars

2005-02-26T20:07:04-08:00

Author: Zilindico
Category: General
Language: English, Fiction Rated: M
Genres: Drama/Fantasy
Chapters: 5, Words: 3,300, Reviews: 2 Updated: 2-26-05, Published: 1-31-05
Status: Complete

Marlene, an 18-year-old capable of manipulating the rain, tells the story of a long and painful year in her life, a time of love and death and revolution. Part 5 (The First Dream) added.

Questioning Beliefs

2005-02-08T14:41:44-08:00

Author: Zilindico
Category: Religion
Language: English, Fiction Rated: K
Genres: Angst/Spiritual
Chapters: 1, Words: 125, Reviews: 8 Updated: 2-8-05, Published: 2-8-05
Status: Complete

I'm often berated by holier-than-thou Christians telling me what to believe, allowing me no choice in the matter. This is my question to them.

Mirror Envy

2005-02-08T14:39:03-08:00

Author: Zilindico
Category: Love
Language: English, Fiction Rated: K+
Genres: Romance
Chapters: 1, Words: 100, Reviews: 2 Updated: 2-8-05, Published: 2-8-05
Status: Complete

A conversation regarding love beyond what some see as typical; an exploration into the beautiful.

Mary

2005-02-08T14:35:54-08:00

Author: Zilindico
Category: Life
Language: English, Fiction Rated: T
Genres: Angst/Tragedy
Chapters: 1, Words: 136, Reviews: 0 Updated: 2-8-05, Published: 2-8-05
Status: Complete

Rant of madness in despondent times, losing hold of what reality really is. Poem for Creative Writing. Rating due to language and content.

Disenchanted Muse

2005-02-05T13:02:45-08:00

Author: Zilindico
Category: General
Language: English, Fiction Rated: K+
Genres: Angst
Chapters: 1, Words: 133, Reviews: 1 Updated: 2-5-05, Published: 2-5-05
Status: Complete

A painful lament over the death of poetry by exhaustion and pillaging.

Night Echoes

2005-02-05T12:59:44-08:00

Author: Zilindico
Category: General
Language: English, Fiction Rated: K
Genres: Angst
Chapters: 1, Words: 215, Reviews: 2 Updated: 2-5-05, Published: 2-5-05
Status: Complete

A longing for peace that never seems to come.

All Roads Lead To Town

2005-02-05T12:54:43-08:00

Author: Zilindico
Category: Humor
Language: English, Fiction Rated: K+
Genres: Humor/Angst
Chapters: 1, Words: 230, Reviews: 0 Updated: 2-5-05, Published: 2-5-05
Status: Complete

Try getting lost when your best chance of redirection is Nut Town... A pun/parody of Anne Carson's "Plainwater," with a few other jokes from outside sources. Work for Creative Writing.

Blues

2005-02-05T12:49:10-08:00

Author: Zilindico
Category: Song
Language: English, Fiction Rated: T
Genres: Romance/Angst
Chapters: 1, Words: 266, Reviews: 0 Updated: 2-5-05, Published: 2-5-05
Status: Complete

Emotions in light of a breaking, bleeding relationship, when you love someone so bad you want to kill them. Neurotic erotica. Rating for language and content.

Feel Alive

2005-01-27T11:47:09-08:00

Author: Zilindico
Category: Love
Language: English, Fiction Rated: T
Genres: Romance/Horror
Chapters: 1, Words: 247, Reviews: 0 Updated: 1-27-05, Published: 1-27-05
Status: Complete

Love to the extreme, love through death, neurotic erotica.

Child

2005-01-27T11:41:41-08:00

Author: Zilindico
Category: Life
Language: English, Fiction Rated: K+
Genres: Tragedy/Angst
Chapters: 1, Words: 218, Reviews: 0 Updated: 1-27-05, Published: 1-27-05
Status: Complete

To / for Rose and her "Rose Marie" who was sadly never meant to be.

Tell Me What I'm Afraid To Hear

2005-01-25T17:54:21-08:00

Author: Zilindico
Category: Life
Language: English, Fiction Rated: K
Genres: Angst
Chapters: 1, Words: 139, Reviews: 3 Updated: 1-25-05, Published: 1-25-05
Status: Complete

Sometimes we all need to be told to shut the hell up. Thing don't penetrateon their own, and we get pissed off, but sometimes, it's for our own good.

Please Breathe

2005-01-25T17:50:31-08:00

Author: Zilindico
Category: Friendship
Language: English, Fiction Rated: K+
Genres: Angst/Romance
Chapters: 1, Words: 278, Reviews: 0 Updated: 1-25-05, Published: 1-25-05
Status: Complete

A generic yet heartfelt poem reaching out to Diana, who forgets these words too often...

Butterfly Rage

2005-01-25T17:45:10-08:00

Author: Zilindico
Category: Life
Language: English, Fiction Rated: T
Genres: Angst/Drama
Chapters: 1, Words: 229, Reviews: 1 Updated: 1-25-05, Published: 1-25-05
Status: Complete

The rage of countless generations, or maybe only the latest. A rage that consumes and consumes until there's nothing left inside. Rating for language.

Eyes

2005-01-25T17:41:21-08:00

Author: Zilindico
Category: General
Language: English, Fiction Rated: K
Genres: Angst
Chapters: 1, Words: 136, Reviews: 1 Updated: 1-25-05, Published: 1-25-05
Status: Complete

Eyes on a wall, staring; lonely, unnoticed; a long-winded metaphor. A poem for Creative Writing class.

Waiting For You

2005-01-25T17:36:10-08:00

Author: Zilindico
Category: Love
Language: English, Fiction Rated: K+
Genres: Angst/Romance
Chapters: 1, Words: 138, Reviews: 0 Updated: 1-25-05, Published: 1-25-05
Status: Complete

Futily awaiting the return of a lost lover. Inspired by the video game Silent Hill 2.

Praise For All The Artists

2004-12-23T13:47:26-08:00

Author: Zilindico
Category: General
Language: English, Fiction Rated: K
Genres: Poetry
Chapters: 1, Words: 106, Reviews: 2 Updated: 12-23-04, Published: 12-23-04
Status: Complete

Elation regarding the grand feeling of receiving wonderful praise for one's art.

Lost

2004-09-01T13:42:13-08:00

Author: Zilindico
Category: General
Language: English, Fiction Rated: K+
Genres: Angst
Chapters: 1, Words: 99, Reviews: 0 Updated: 9-1-04, Published: 9-1-04
Status: Complete

The things I desire are loved and hated in today's world, but only by a contradictory culture. Is this feeling so wrong?

Death

2004-09-01T13:37:34-08:00

Author: Zilindico
Category: Life
Language: English, Fiction Rated: K+
Genres: Tragedy
Chapters: 1, Words: 72, Reviews: 1 Updated: 9-1-04, Published: 9-1-04
Status: Complete

We're all dying together. It's the popular thing to do. Everyone's doing it. Join in if you want to be like everyone else. Inspired by Neil Gaiman's "Sandman" series.

Delirium

2004-09-01T13:35:00-08:00

Author: Zilindico
Category: General
Language: English, Fiction Rated: K+
Genres: General
Chapters: 1, Words: 63, Reviews: 0 Updated: 9-1-04, Published: 9-1-04
Status: Complete

A species at war with its own nature, manipulated by others and warped by society into a paradoxical existence. Inspired by Neil Gaiman's "Sandman" series.

The Fallen

2004-09-01T13:31:04-08:00

Author: Zilindico
Category: Life
Language: English, Fiction Rated: K
Genres: Angst
Chapters: 1, Words: 78, Reviews: 0 Updated: 9-1-04, Published: 9-1-04
Status: Complete

Too many comprehending the truth of the world and society have fallen before me, but I shall try to survive through what has destroyed them.

My Own Opinion

2004-09-01T13:29:25-08:00

Author: Zilindico
Category: Religion
Language: English, Fiction Rated: K+
Genres: Angst/Spiritual
Chapters: 1, Words: 182, Reviews: 8 Updated: 9-1-04, Published: 9-1-04
Status: Complete

Thought attack/rant against the more oppressive religious people, the kind that say "obey my religion or go to Hell."

Arrogance In The First Degree

2004-09-01T13:21:22-08:00

Author: Zilindico
Category: General
Language: English, Fiction Rated: T
Genres: Angst
Chapters: 1, Words: 102, Reviews: 0 Updated: 9-1-04, Published: 9-1-04
Status: Complete

Basically a rant over a narsissistic prick I had to deal with fairly recently.

Tumbling Fools

2004-09-01T13:15:41-08:00

Author: Zilindico
Category: Love
Language: English, Fiction Rated: T
Genres: Romance/Angst
Chapters: 1, Words: 141, Reviews: 0 Updated: 9-1-04, Published: 9-1-04
Status: Complete

What else is there in life? Love can seem like all there is, even when you know it'll one day shatter. Minor language.

Came And Left

2004-09-01T13:12:32-08:00

Author: Zilindico
Category: Love
Language: English, Fiction Rated: T
Genres: Angst/Romance
Chapters: 1, Words: 157, Reviews: 0 Updated: 9-1-04, Published: 9-1-04
Status: Complete

A price is paid by trusting too blindly, and the emptiness left inside can bleed eternally.

Cinq Mille Roses Dans Un Seul Jardin

2004-09-01T13:10:12-08:00

Author: Zilindico
Category: Love
Language: English, Fiction Rated: K+
Genres: Angst/Romance
Chapters: 1, Words: 72, Reviews: 0 Updated: 9-1-04, Published: 9-1-04
Status: Complete

Allegory of the current world and love, the mimicry of love and faces most everywhere you look, unless your heart is truly dedicated. Contains references to “Le Petit Prince” by Antoine de Saint-Exupery.

Ordinary Stars

2004-06-09T09:47:51-08:00

Author: Zilindico
Category: General
Language: English, Fiction Rated: K
Genres: Angst/Fantasy
Chapters: 1, Words: 93, Reviews: 3 Updated: 6-9-04, Published: 6-9-04
Status: Complete

Common magic illudes me. Everything seems wholly ordinary now, in this boring life.

Thinking Sadly

2004-06-09T09:46:43-08:00

Author: Zilindico
Category: Life
Language: English, Fiction Rated: K
Genres: Angst
Chapters: 1, Words: 66, Reviews: 1 Updated: 6-9-04, Published: 6-9-04
Status: Complete

Time passes too quickly, and family age too fast. Thoughts regarding my sister getting older.

Far Dreaming

2004-06-09T09:45:10-08:00

Author: Zilindico
Category: General
Language: English, Fiction Rated: K
Genres: Angst
Chapters: 1, Words: 52, Reviews: 1 Updated: 6-9-04, Published: 6-9-04
Status: Complete

longing for life that does not yet exist; longing for personal content

Ode On Shakespeare

2004-05-18T18:39:37-08:00

Author: Zilindico
Category: Life
Language: English, Fiction Rated: K
Genres: Angst
Chapters: 1, Words: 222, Reviews: 2 Updated: 5-18-04, Published: 5-18-04
Status: Complete

Life comes down to tattered, yellowed paper. Does anyone live forever, if everything deteriorates, and how do I hope to accomplish anything if Shakespeare's already done it all?

Peculiar Brainstorming

2004-05-07T18:44:45-08:00

Author: Zilindico
Category: Humor
Language: English, Fiction Rated: K
Genres: Humor/Angst
Chapters: 1, Words: 55, Reviews: 1 Updated: 5-7-04, Published: 5-7-04
Status: Complete

You can get some pretty weird and interesting ideas when you brainstorm for a poem idea for too long.

Block

2004-05-07T18:43:24-08:00

Author: Zilindico
Category: General
Language: English, Fiction Rated: K
Genres: Angst
Chapters: 1, Words: 50, Reviews: 1 Updated: 5-7-04, Published: 5-7-04
Status: Complete

Writer's block: you know it, you hate it, you live with it.

Dictionary Definition

2004-04-22T14:11:14-08:00

Author: Zilindico
Category: Love
Language: English, Fiction Rated: T
Genres: Tragedy/Romance
Chapters: 1, Words: 190, Reviews: 3 Updated: 4-22-04, Published: 4-22-04
Status: Complete

If love has so many different forms and different definitions and nuances, and no one knows for sure what it is, why do we all strive so badly for it that we're dying in the process? Rating for sexuality.

Unfollowed Light

2004-04-22T14:08:58-08:00

Author: Zilindico
Category: Haiku
Language: English, Fiction Rated: K
Genres: Spiritual/Tragedy
Chapters: 1, Words: 10, Reviews: 3 Updated: 4-22-04, Published: 4-22-04
Status: Complete

If God's out there, somewhere, we can't seem to find him.

Modern Day Suicide

2004-04-22T14:07:58-08:00

Author: Zilindico
Category: Life
Language: English, Fiction Rated: K+
Genres: Angst
Chapters: 1, Words: 201, Reviews: 1 Updated: 4-22-04, Published: 4-22-04
Status: Complete

Society is mankind's curse. The confines of this civilization are choking. The further we fall inside, the tighter it squeezes our throats till we die, all our own faults.

The Funny Life Of Dogs

2004-04-20T14:04:24-08:00

Author: Zilindico
Category: Humor
Language: English, Fiction Rated: K
Genres: Humor
Chapters: 1, Words: 136, Reviews: 1 Updated: 4-20-04, Published: 4-20-04
Status: Complete

A little vignette of my two dogs and how strange and goofy they are.

Sanctity

2004-04-20T14:03:24-08:00

Author: Zilindico
Category: Religion
Language: English, Fiction Rated: T
Genres: Tragedy/Spiritual
Chapters: 1, Words: 234, Reviews: 3 Updated: 4-20-04, Published: 4-20-04
Status: Complete

Some people go too far, much too far. Some people take religion to the extent that it sanctifies all their actions, and thus what they do is right and right in the eyes of God. This leads to hurt.

Path of Breaking Stone

2004-04-20T14:00:49-08:00

Author: Zilindico
Category: Life
Language: English, Fiction Rated: K+
Genres: Angst/Spiritual
Chapters: 1, Words: 173, Reviews: 1 Updated: 4-20-04, Published: 4-20-04
Status: Complete

I seem to exist with a unique viewpoint unshared by my peers. I serve and hate no one. I exist outside the control of God and yet do not hate him. I walk a precarious line.

Wake

2004-04-20T13:57:52-08:00

Author: Zilindico
Category: General
Language: English, Fiction Rated: T
Genres: Angst/Horror
Chapters: 1, Words: 220, Reviews: 1 Updated: 4-20-04, Published: 4-20-04
Status: Complete

When memories and dreams meld and cannot be separated, how can one hope to maintain sanity?

Sappho

2004-04-10T21:00:50-08:00

Author: Zilindico
Category: Life
Language: English, Fiction Rated: K+
Genres: Angst/Spiritual
Chapters: 1, Words: 354, Reviews: 1 Updated: 4-10-04, Published: 4-10-04
Status: Complete

Humanity speaks for God. God speaks but isn't heard. I lay alone, ruled by the world's word, and am without self. My only mirror is Sappho, and even she is long since silenced.

MirrorPlace

2004-04-10T20:58:10-08:00

Author: Zilindico
Category: General
Language: English, Fiction Rated: K
Genres: Angst
Chapters: 1, Words: 90, Reviews: 1 Updated: 4-10-04, Published: 4-10-04
Status: Complete

This is what it means to be free, and yet chained. This is what it means to be away, somewhere else, and finally realizing the gravity of it all.

Nothing Left Of You

2004-04-10T20:56:08-08:00

Author: Zilindico
Category: Song
Language: English, Fiction Rated: T
Genres: Angst
Chapters: 1, Words: 224, Reviews: 1 Updated: 4-10-04, Published: 4-10-04
Status: Complete

culture consumes, nothing left of one's self but logos and hatred and sex and emptiness; Rating for language.

Onset Of Emotion

2004-04-10T20:54:04-08:00

Author: Zilindico
Category: General
Language: English, Fiction Rated: K+
Genres: Angst
Chapters: 1, Words: 149, Reviews: 0 Updated: 4-10-04, Published: 4-10-04
Status: Complete

//Everything or nothing, // There are no other choices, // And all the lines blur // Like the onset of anesthesia//

A Girl, Broken

2004-04-10T20:51:39-08:00

Author: Zilindico
Category: General
Language: English, Fiction Rated: T
Genres: Angst
Chapters: 1, Words: 221, Reviews: 3 Updated: 4-10-04, Published: 4-10-04
Status: Complete

losing one's self within the sin of this culture's "happiness"

Inspiration

2004-02-29T11:14:02-08:00

Author: Zilindico
Category: Friendship
Language: English, Fiction Rated: T
Genres: General
Chapters: 1, Words: 104, Reviews: 1 Updated: 2-29-04, Published: 2-29-04
Status: Complete

Thank you for everything, for being you, for... Partly inspired by Leslie Feinberg, author of "Stone Butch Blues."

Miracle

2004-02-29T11:12:26-08:00

Author: Zilindico
Category: Life
Language: English, Fiction Rated: K+
Genres: Tragedy/Angst
Chapters: 1, Words: 141, Reviews: 0 Updated: 2-29-04, Published: 2-29-04
Status: Complete

Humans are self-destructive creatures, and there will be no miracles to save us other than our own actions.

Suicide Machine

2004-02-29T11:09:05-08:00

Author: Zilindico
Category: General
Language: English, Fiction Rated: T
Genres: Horror/Parody
Chapters: 1, Words: 133, Reviews: 3 Updated: 2-29-04, Published: 2-29-04
Status: Complete

In a perfect society, to end one's life is the right of every man, woman, and child, and to do so, one may use the suicide machine. Rating for content. Inspired by manga "Battle Angel Alita."

Focus

2004-02-29T11:06:38-08:00

Author: Zilindico
Category: General
Language: English, Fiction Rated: K
Genres: Tragedy
Chapters: 1, Words: 23, Reviews: 1 Updated: 2-29-04, Published: 2-29-04
Status: Complete

Change your perception.

Real

2004-02-29T10:59:04-08:00

Author: Zilindico
Category: General
Language: English, Fiction Rated: T
Genres: Tragedy/Angst
Chapters: 1, Words: 100, Reviews: 0 Updated: 2-29-04, Published: 2-29-04
Status: Complete

Are they joking? Is it a serious situation? Will someone be hurt? I don't understand... Is this real?

A Red Rose Grows On Mars

2004-02-29T10:57:21-08:00

Author: Zilindico
Category: Friendship
Language: English, Fiction Rated: K
Genres: Fantasy
Chapters: 1, Words: 106, Reviews: 0 Updated: 2-29-04, Published: 2-29-04
Status: Complete

Apart from the sin and pain of the Earth, a beauty grows elsewhere, free from the suffering in hurt. For Rei.

Fighting Off The Darkness

2004-02-29T10:54:34-08:00

Author: Zilindico
Category: Friendship
Language: English, Fiction Rated: T
Genres: Angst
Chapters: 1, Words: 142, Reviews: 2 Updated: 2-29-04, Published: 2-29-04
Status: Complete

Needing someone, anyone, something, needing a friend, tired of being alone and being the friend; needing anything... Rating for language.

Last Survivor

2004-02-29T10:48:24-08:00

Author: Zilindico
Category: General
Language: English, Fiction Rated: T
Genres: Tragedy/Angst
Chapters: 1, Words: 125, Reviews: 0 Updated: 2-29-04, Published: 2-29-04
Status: Complete

I am the last survivor of a broken world, and I am no longer myself, either.

So Hard To Help, So Hard To Heal

2004-02-29T10:46:39-08:00

Author: Zilindico
Category: General
Language: English, Fiction Rated: T
Genres: Angst
Chapters: 1, Words: 199, Reviews: 1 Updated: 2-29-04, Published: 2-29-04
Status: Complete

You hurt needlessly, and I hurt for you. Won't you understand that it's not your fault? Rating for language.

Untitled 2

2004-02-29T10:44:21-08:00

Author: Zilindico
Category: General
Language: English, Fiction Rated: T
Genres: Angst
Chapters: 1, Words: 105, Reviews: 0 Updated: 2-29-04, Published: 2-29-04
Status: Complete

I'm tired of the rules and social regulations. Let me live how I choose and stop trying to destroy me. Rating for language.

Thought Experiments: First Steps

2004-02-27T14:00:39-08:00

Author: Zilindico
Category: Biography
Language: English, Fiction Rated: T
Genres: General
Chapters: 1, Words: 1,064, Reviews: 2 Updated: 2-27-04, Published: 2-27-04
Status: Complete

I've started at last to conquer my social anxiety disorder. In the cold of one winter's night, I took the first steps towards freedom. Rating for language. Originally written 2/2/04.

We Are Today's Children

2004-02-01T16:25:23-08:00

Author: Zilindico
Category: General
Language: English, Fiction Rated: T
Genres: Tragedy/Angst
Chapters: 1, Words: 198, Reviews: 3 Updated: 2-1-04, Published: 2-1-04
Status: Complete

Everyone knows it: culture and society and time have corrupted us all. We are the products of negligence and mistakes, and we have many sins to correct. Rating for language and content.

If I Could

2004-02-01T16:19:34-08:00

Author: Zilindico
Category: Song
Language: English, Fiction Rated: T
Genres: Angst
Chapters: 1, Words: 269, Reviews: 0 Updated: 2-1-04, Published: 2-1-04
Status: Complete

If I could take away all your pain, your endless strife and flowing tears, neither Heaven nor Hell could stop me. For Rei, and anyone that needs words of comfort sometimes. Rating for language.

Hardened Memory

2004-02-01T16:14:30-08:00

Author: Zilindico
Category: Love
Language: English, Fiction Rated: K
Genres: Angst/Romance
Chapters: 1, Words: 115, Reviews: 0 Updated: 2-1-04, Published: 2-1-04
Status: Complete

Love is beautiful and maddening. What does love turn us into? What are memories?

Pondering's Upon A Winter's Day

2004-02-01T16:11:04-08:00

Author: Zilindico
Category: Nature
Language: English, Fiction Rated: K
Genres: General/Angst
Chapters: 1, Words: 86, Reviews: 0 Updated: 2-1-04, Published: 2-1-04
Status: Complete

Isolation is calming and destructive. Where can one find true peace?

Phantom Eyes

2004-02-01T16:07:19-08:00

Author: Zilindico
Category: Love
Language: English, Fiction Rated: K
Genres: Angst/Romance
Chapters: 1, Words: 113, Reviews: 1 Updated: 2-1-04, Published: 2-1-04
Status: Complete

Guilt can be terribly haunting, and it's so hard to leave behind completely an abandoned fate-thread.

Endless Sea

2004-02-01T15:58:59-08:00

Author: Zilindico
Category: Life
Language: English, Fiction Rated: K+
Genres: Angst
Chapters: 1, Words: 149, Reviews: 0 Updated: 2-1-04, Published: 2-1-04
Status: Complete

Growing up is so hard, when you feel yourself crashing upon the hard wall of reality. One wishs that wishes would come true.

Breathe To Her

2004-02-01T15:55:15-08:00

Author: Zilindico
Category: General
Language: English, Fiction Rated: K+
Genres: Angst
Chapters: 1, Words: 130, Reviews: 1 Updated: 2-1-04, Published: 2-1-04
Status: Complete

It's hard to be someone's sole comfort, especially when you fear you'll fall short of their expectations, their needs.

Old Letters

2004-02-01T15:52:03-08:00

Author: Zilindico
Category: Life
Language: English, Fiction Rated: K
Genres: Tragedy/Angst
Chapters: 1, Words: 166, Reviews: 0 Updated: 2-1-04, Published: 2-1-04
Status: Complete

All memory fades in time, even the most important and tragic of reflections. When memories do return, we can't always expect to smile. Regarding the death of Sara Starks, 7/19/01.

Powerless

2004-02-01T15:48:25-08:00

Author: Zilindico
Category: Life
Language: English, Fiction Rated: K+
Genres: Tragedy/Angst
Chapters: 1, Words: 68, Reviews: 0 Updated: 2-1-04, Published: 2-1-04
Status: Complete

We can't always help... Sometimes sorrow is beyond our power to abate.

Love Under Logic: Revolution Executer Marlene

2003-12-18T12:38:31-08:00

Author: Zilindico
Category: Romance
Language: English, Fiction Rated: M
Genres: Drama/Angst
Chapters: 77, Words: 73,708, Reviews: 21 Updated: 12-18-03, Published: 8-21-03
Status: Complete

18, bi, female, college freshman, writer, dreamer, rebel, conformist, phobic, hurting, withdrawn, fighter, lover, beautiful, diarist: Marlene, revolutionary. Rating for various strong content. Revision up through Entry 1.

Archivist

2003-12-18T12:37:27-08:00

Author: Zilindico
Category: General
Language: English, Fiction Rated: K
Genres: Angst/Romance
Chapters: 1, Words: 257, Reviews: 1 Updated: 12-18-03, Published: 12-18-03
Status: Complete

We may not understand things now, but maybe they'll be clear to those looking at our records in a century's time. I understand things by avoiding them and gazing at the words in stasis.

Trinity

2003-12-18T12:35:25-08:00

Author: Zilindico
Category: Life
Language: English, Fiction Rated: K+
Genres: Angst
Chapters: 1, Words: 224, Reviews: 0 Updated: 12-18-03, Published: 12-18-03
Status: Complete

Something I am inside; separation of personas, each grasping for each other but unreaching; standing in a circle, unbreaking.

Growing Up

2003-12-18T12:32:45-08:00

Author: Zilindico
Category: Life
Language: English, Fiction Rated: K+
Genres: Angst
Chapters: 1, Words: 220, Reviews: 1 Updated: 12-18-03, Published: 12-18-03
Status: Complete

What is "growing up" I may be an adult now, but I still do not grasp this knowledge I am supposed to inheret. Why must I feel what you tell me to feel?

Want To Remember

2003-12-18T12:30:34-08:00

Author: Zilindico
Category: Song
Language: English, Fiction Rated: T
Genres: Angst
Chapters: 1, Words: 251, Reviews: 2 Updated: 12-18-03, Published: 12-18-03
Status: Complete

Dying at last, a final escape from you and everything I fear. Written in the style of Evanescence.

Inside Of Me

2003-12-18T12:27:34-08:00

Author: Zilindico
Category: Song
Language: English, Fiction Rated: K
Genres: Angst
Chapters: 1, Words: 147, Reviews: 1 Updated: 12-18-03, Published: 12-18-03
Status: Complete

Breaking down, collapsing, left with nothing inside of me.

Private War

2003-12-18T12:25:01-08:00

Author: Zilindico
Category: General
Language: English, Fiction Rated: K+
Genres: Angst
Chapters: 1, Words: 90, Reviews: 0 Updated: 12-18-03, Published: 12-18-03
Status: Complete

Extreme hatred, bringing an endless feud to a head. Part of Bloodletting poem series.

Playing God

2003-12-18T12:22:57-08:00

Author: Zilindico
Category: General
Language: English, Fiction Rated: K
Genres: General
Chapters: 1, Words: 134, Reviews: 0 Updated: 12-18-03, Published: 12-18-03
Status: Complete

Altering fate is all you have to do, just make one little correction to the path of someone's life and now you're playing God.

One Last Kiss

2003-12-17T13:22:02-08:00

Author: Zilindico
Category: Love
Language: English, Fiction Rated: K
Genres: General
Chapters: 1, Words: 89, Reviews: 1 Updated: 12-17-03, Published: 12-17-03
Status: Complete

Dying despite love, a world collapsing is stronger than love. Terza Rima format.

Without Meaning

2003-12-17T09:37:17-08:00

Author: Zilindico
Category: General
Language: English, Fiction Rated: K
Genres: Angst
Chapters: 1, Words: 82, Reviews: 2 Updated: 12-17-03, Published: 12-17-03
Status: Complete

Rambling, the last act to hold onto sanity. Where do the lines blur between life and loss?

Lullaby

2003-12-17T09:34:55-08:00

Author: Zilindico
Category: Family
Language: English, Fiction Rated: K
Genres: General
Chapters: 1, Words: 86, Reviews: 1 Updated: 12-17-03, Published: 12-17-03
Status: Complete

A mother's soothing song brings sleep to a tired child, and so we see a reflection upon all our lives.

The Secret War

2003-12-17T09:32:35-08:00

Author: Zilindico
Category: General
Language: English, Fiction Rated: K+
Genres: Angst/Tragedy
Chapters: 1, Words: 242, Reviews: 0 Updated: 12-17-03, Published: 12-17-03
Status: Complete

A war waged between two would-be lovers, a war seen only by the borderliners existing between obscurity and commonality; why can no one but us see it?

Last Dance

2003-12-17T09:29:22-08:00

Author: Zilindico
Category: Love
Language: English, Fiction Rated: K
Genres: Romance/Angst
Chapters: 1, Words: 155, Reviews: 0 Updated: 12-17-03, Published: 12-17-03
Status: Complete

One last dance before the end of the world, one last dance between two fallen lovers.

Dances

2003-11-23T13:52:15-08:00

Author: Zilindico
Category: Love
Language: English, Fiction Rated: K+
Genres: Romance/Angst
Chapters: 1, Words: 347, Reviews: 1 Updated: 11-23-03, Published: 11-23-03
Status: Complete

A pleasent night out, a school dance to attend with a lover, only to have the harsh reality of the world fight back against a beautiful love. Yuri, f/f, etc.

Unaccepted

2003-11-23T13:51:03-08:00

Author: Zilindico
Category: Love
Language: English, Fiction Rated: K
Genres: Romance/Angst
Chapters: 1, Words: 102, Reviews: 0 Updated: 11-23-03, Published: 11-23-03
Status: Complete

Can the world understand my love for you, and if we never faced the hardship the world forces upon us because of how we're different by being the same, would our love still be as special? Implied same-sex relations.

Tell Me True

2003-11-23T13:49:05-08:00

Author: Zilindico
Category: Love
Language: English, Fiction Rated: K
Genres: Angst
Chapters: 1, Words: 115, Reviews: 1 Updated: 11-23-03, Published: 11-23-03
Status: Complete

Tell me, and tell me true: give me a reason for your behavior, the way you act around me, the way you smile or cry, everything you think and feel. Tell me, and tell me real: what do you feel?

Second Guess

2003-11-23T13:47:37-08:00

Author: Zilindico
Category: General
Language: English, Fiction Rated: K
Genres: Angst
Chapters: 1, Words: 200, Reviews: 0 Updated: 11-23-03, Published: 11-23-03
Status: Complete

Doubting truths, losing faith in one's self and everyone else, contemplating reality, all because of a Christmas present.

Untold Borderlines

2003-11-23T13:45:15-08:00

Author: Zilindico
Category: General
Language: English, Fiction Rated: K+
Genres: Angst
Chapters: 1, Words: 182, Reviews: 1 Updated: 11-23-03, Published: 11-23-03
Status: Complete

Define sanity. Give me a reason to believe in the future. Allow me to be consumed by enclosing borderlines.

Neurosis

2003-11-23T13:43:02-08:00

Author: Zilindico
Category: General
Language: English, Fiction Rated: K+
Genres: Angst
Chapters: 1, Words: 117, Reviews: 1 Updated: 11-23-03, Published: 11-23-03
Status: Complete

Going insane, losing sanity, distracted clarity, losing sign of truth's definition.

Innocent Dreams

2003-11-23T13:41:37-08:00

Author: Zilindico
Category: Life
Language: English, Fiction Rated: T
Genres: Angst
Chapters: 1, Words: 226, Reviews: 1 Updated: 11-23-03, Published: 11-23-03
Status: Complete

Growing up can feel like the most horrible thing, a sacred fear, a longing against longing; a young girl feels new feelings and prays against them. Rating for possibly uncomfortable content.

One Night

2003-11-23T13:31:03-08:00

Author: Zilindico
Category: Love
Language: English, Fiction Rated: T
Genres: Romance/Angst
Chapters: 1, Words: 248, Reviews: 2 Updated: 11-23-03, Published: 11-23-03
Status: Complete

A love so strange, wanting it but fearing it, a common setting with an uncommon purpose, wanting to claim the emotions but fearing them wrong.

Little Sister

2003-11-23T13:29:48-08:00

Author: Zilindico
Category: Family
Language: English, Fiction Rated: K+
Genres: Angst
Chapters: 1, Words: 392, Reviews: 3 Updated: 11-23-03, Published: 11-23-03
Status: Complete

It's wonderful watching over someone growing up in your image, but it makes you wonder how they feel towards you, and how they grow because of the things you do in your own life. We cannot always shelter the ones we love.

I Need To Pee!

2003-11-23T13:28:13-08:00

Author: Zilindico
Category: Humor
Language: English, Fiction Rated: K+
Genres: Humor/Angst
Chapters: 1, Words: 66, Reviews: 7 Updated: 11-23-03, Published: 11-23-03
Status: Complete

Don't you just hate when you really really really need to pee and something is keeping you from fulfilling that relieving end? It's even worse when you can't even do the pee-pee dance to make yourself feel at least a little better in the meantime.

A Dream Fulfilled

2003-11-23T13:26:42-08:00

Author: Zilindico
Category: Love
Language: English, Fiction Rated: T
Genres: Romance/Angst
Chapters: 1, Words: 299, Reviews: 0 Updated: 11-23-03, Published: 11-23-03
Status: Complete

The long fight against the world results in caring only for love, not caring if the world looks down upon who is loved, only caring for that love, and that love, that dream, becomes fulfilled. Implied same-sex relations.

Any Answer

2003-11-23T13:23:54-08:00

Author: Zilindico
Category: Life
Language: English, Fiction Rated: T
Genres: Angst/Tragedy
Chapters: 1, Words: 97, Reviews: 0 Updated: 11-23-03, Published: 11-23-03
Status: Complete

No reprieve, no escape, no help, collapsing into an unescapable pain, falling into willing suicide and unknown destiny, wanting so answer, yes or no, should I live or die, so long as someone else makes the choice..

Because I Can Love You

2003-11-22T14:33:23-08:00

Author: Zilindico
Category: Love
Language: English, Fiction Rated: K
Genres: Angst/Romance
Chapters: 1, Words: 185, Reviews: 3 Updated: 11-22-03, Published: 11-22-03
Status: Complete

Loving someone who's known the pain of life and love, trying to help them face a new world, searching for hope in a dying soul.

Wondering Of You Alone

2003-11-22T14:31:50-08:00

Author: Zilindico
Category: Love
Language: English, Fiction Rated: K
Genres: Romance/Angst
Chapters: 1, Words: 57, Reviews: 1 Updated: 11-22-03, Published: 11-22-03
Status: Complete

Alone in bed and thinking, always thinking of you, bound forever, in pain.

Beyond The Bounds

2003-11-22T14:30:33-08:00

Author: Zilindico
Category: Love
Language: English, Fiction Rated: K
Genres: Angst/Romance
Chapters: 1, Words: 84, Reviews: 0 Updated: 11-22-03, Published: 11-22-03
Status: Complete

Step beyond the bounds created by the world, find your own happiness defined by you and no one else, let your heart guide you to everlasting peace.

Crossroads

2003-11-22T14:29:16-08:00

Author: Zilindico
Category: Life
Language: English, Fiction Rated: K
Genres: Angst
Chapters: 1, Words: 195, Reviews: 0 Updated: 11-22-03, Published: 11-22-03
Status: Complete

Walking the path of life, wondering which roads to take, ever uncertain of the ends and the means, never without fear.

Anathema

2003-11-22T14:27:56-08:00

Author: Zilindico
Category: General
Language: English, Fiction Rated: M
Genres: Angst
Chapters: 1, Words: 219, Reviews: 1 Updated: 11-22-03, Published: 11-22-03
Status: Complete

Extreme hatred of a fool of a man, a wretched human being almost without reason to exist. Rating for lots of language and a whole lotta angriness. Part of Bloodletting poem series.

Anxiety Attack

2003-11-22T14:14:32-08:00

Author: Zilindico
Category: Life
Language: English, Fiction Rated: K
Genres: Angst
Chapters: 1, Words: 69, Reviews: 1 Updated: 11-22-03, Published: 11-22-03
Status: Complete

Panic, collapsing, falling, hurting, anxious; a recounting of an anxiety attack I had.

Blank Page

2003-11-22T14:09:28-08:00

Author: Zilindico
Category: General
Language: English, Fiction Rated: T
Genres: Angst
Chapters: 1, Words: 87, Reviews: 1 Updated: 11-22-03, Published: 11-22-03
Status: Complete

Wondering over a blank page, wondering of one's life. Rating for brief language.

Till The End Of My Existence

2003-11-22T14:07:49-08:00

Author: Zilindico
Category: General
Language: English, Fiction Rated: K
Genres: Angst
Chapters: 1, Words: 124, Reviews: 2 Updated: 11-22-03, Published: 11-22-03
Status: Complete

Longing for everything, believing in nothing, only having one's self in the end.

Last Night

2003-11-22T14:06:37-08:00

Author: Zilindico
Category: Life
Language: English, Fiction Rated: T
Genres: Angst/Tragedy
Chapters: 1, Words: 42, Reviews: 2 Updated: 11-22-03, Published: 11-22-03
Status: Complete

Last thoughts of a suicidal, falling away into darkness...

I Love You

2003-11-22T14:05:31-08:00

Author: Zilindico
Category: Love
Language: English, Fiction Rated: K
Genres: Romance/Angst
Chapters: 1, Words: 141, Reviews: 0 Updated: 11-22-03, Published: 11-22-03
Status: Complete

Wanting to love, unable to, fearing the pain of embarking on such a journey, so afraid, endlessly afraid...

Omega

2003-11-17T11:59:25-08:00

Author: Zilindico
Category: Fantasy
Language: English, Fiction Rated: T
Genres: Sci-Fi/Drama
Chapters: 1, Words: 227, Reviews: 0 Updated: 11-17-03, Published: 11-17-03
Status: Complete

Two worlds on opposite planes of existence, Earth and Gaia, slowly begin a merging that has the potential of destroying both. Only "Omega," the One, she who bears the True Soul, shall be able to save them all. Prologue up.

Want For Happiness

2003-11-09T10:04:45-08:00

Author: Zilindico
Category: Love
Language: English, Fiction Rated: K
Genres: Angst/Romance
Chapters: 1, Words: 305, Reviews: 3 Updated: 11-9-03, Published: 11-9-03
Status: Complete

Two lovers, together, happy but for lack of extended happiness, denied the right to create new life between them, denied happiness... Possibly my best poem yet.

My Final Revenge

2003-11-09T10:02:25-08:00

Author: Zilindico
Category: Fantasy
Language: English, Fiction Rated: K+
Genres: Angst/Suspense
Chapters: 1, Words: 106, Reviews: 2 Updated: 11-9-03, Published: 11-9-03
Status: Complete

One last battle, it must end here, this endless dance will finish with your death, and I shall be free at last...

On The Internet Only

2003-11-09T09:59:52-08:00

Author: Zilindico
Category: Love
Language: English, Fiction Rated: M
Genres: Romance/Angst
Chapters: 1, Words: 150, Reviews: 2 Updated: 11-9-03, Published: 11-9-03
Status: Complete

Love can be so simple and attainable when it's only words, a dance of pleasureable fantasies, but when everything slips away to night, there's nothing left by emptiness.

Afraid To Say It

2003-11-09T09:55:57-08:00

Author: Zilindico
Category: General
Language: English, Fiction Rated: K
Genres: Angst
Chapters: 1, Words: 117, Reviews: 1 Updated: 11-9-03, Published: 11-9-03
Status: Complete

Having suffered everything and for everything, there' s nothing left but to deny it all.

Bloody Angel

2003-11-09T09:54:25-08:00

Author: Zilindico
Category: Life
Language: English, Fiction Rated: T
Genres: Angst
Chapters: 1, Words: 72, Reviews: 1 Updated: 11-9-03, Published: 11-9-03
Status: Complete

Collapsing, falling, bleeding, unable to touch heaven for the wings have been butchered away.

Nothing Left Of Myself

2003-11-09T09:50:56-08:00

Author: Zilindico
Category: Life
Language: English, Fiction Rated: T
Genres: Angst
Chapters: 1, Words: 70, Reviews: 2 Updated: 11-9-03, Published: 11-9-03
Status: Complete

The sorrow and suicidal lamentations of others can affect one's mind and draw them unwillingly along into that black abyss of madness evolution.

World Collapsing

2003-11-09T09:49:01-08:00

Author: Zilindico
Category: General
Language: English, Fiction Rated: K+
Genres: Angst
Chapters: 1, Words: 158, Reviews: 1 Updated: 11-9-03, Published: 11-9-03
Status: Complete

Always appearing strong in order to keep others strong, always truly weak inside but never allowed to confess, musn't allow others to fall with me.

One Way Out

2003-11-09T09:46:34-08:00

Author: Zilindico
Category: Life
Language: English, Fiction Rated: T
Genres: Angst
Chapters: 1, Words: 96, Reviews: 1 Updated: 11-9-03, Published: 11-9-03
Status: Complete

Falling, choosing to die because no reasons can counter the decision.

For Her, The Lost Romantic

2003-11-03T09:28:35-08:00

Author: Zilindico
Category: Love
Language: English, Fiction Rated: K+
Genres: Romance/Angst
Chapters: 1, Words: 181, Reviews: 0 Updated: 11-3-03, Published: 11-3-03
Status: Complete

Thinking of her, the one who wants me, the one who wishes to claim me, she who will not be claimed and wishes more for a body than a feeling. Dedicated to the "Lost Romantic."

Laughter Recession

2003-11-03T09:26:49-08:00

Author: Zilindico
Category: General
Language: English, Fiction Rated: K+
Genres: Angst
Chapters: 1, Words: 55, Reviews: 0 Updated: 11-3-03, Published: 11-3-03
Status: Complete

A desolate, dying world, our own, serrated by the inhuman humans, wretched people wanting only distraction from dementia.

Shutting Out Voices

2003-11-03T09:25:12-08:00

Author: Zilindico
Category: General
Language: English, Fiction Rated: K
Genres: General
Chapters: 1, Words: 41, Reviews: 1 Updated: 11-3-03, Published: 11-3-03
Status: Complete

Pursuit of one voice in a world's worth, wanting to hear just that one.

Calling Out Into The Stars

2003-11-03T09:24:06-08:00

Author: Zilindico
Category: General
Language: English, Fiction Rated: K
Genres: General
Chapters: 1, Words: 30, Reviews: 0 Updated: 11-3-03, Published: 11-3-03
Status: Complete

Dreams...

Red, Beautiful Dreams

2003-11-03T09:23:07-08:00

Author: Zilindico
Category: Haiku
Language: English, Fiction Rated: K
Genres: Romance/Angst
Chapters: 1, Words: 54, Reviews: 0 Updated: 11-3-03, Published: 11-3-03
Status: Complete

Want for love, lack of claiming, deluge of obscurity.

Thought Stream

2003-11-03T06:37:58-08:00

Author: Zilindico
Category: Love
Language: English, Fiction Rated: K
Genres: Angst/Romance
Chapters: 1, Words: 89, Reviews: 0 Updated: 11-3-03, Published: 11-3-03
Status: Complete

Pondering over your words, pondering over emotion, pondering over how you feel, pondering over how I feel, wondering if it's what I want.

Downpour

2003-11-03T06:36:34-08:00

Author: Zilindico
Category: Love
Language: English, Fiction Rated: K
Genres: Angst/Romance
Chapters: 1, Words: 98, Reviews: 1 Updated: 11-3-03, Published: 11-3-03
Status: Complete

Rain and emotions, emotional rain, thought oscillation across plains of emotion that waver over thoughts of you, your love for me, my want for merely friendship.

Wake From Scarlet Dreams

2003-11-03T06:34:51-08:00

Author: Zilindico
Category: Love
Language: English, Fiction Rated: K
Genres: Angst/Romance
Chapters: 1, Words: 49, Reviews: 0 Updated: 11-3-03, Published: 11-3-03
Status: Complete

Uncertainty, confusion, elaboration of thought towards a feared and desired end.

I'm Waiting

2003-11-03T06:27:33-08:00

Author: Zilindico
Category: Religion
Language: English, Fiction Rated: K
Genres: Spiritual/Angst
Chapters: 1, Words: 81, Reviews: 0 Updated: 11-3-03, Published: 11-3-03
Status: Complete

I'm waiting. Help me. Save me already. I just need help this one time. So please. Do it. Save me. I'm waiting.

Collapse Into Chaos

2003-11-03T06:26:08-08:00

Author: Zilindico
Category: General
Language: English, Fiction Rated: K
Genres: Angst
Chapters: 1, Words: 50, Reviews: 0 Updated: 11-3-03, Published: 11-3-03
Status: Complete

Collapsing into the darkest resesses of the soul, the inner pain and undeniabe torment.

Darkness 2

2003-11-03T06:24:57-08:00

Author: Zilindico
Category: General
Language: English, Fiction Rated: K+
Genres: Angst
Chapters: 1, Words: 71, Reviews: 0 Updated: 11-3-03, Published: 11-3-03
Status: Complete

Fear of the darkness within, fear of the future and the pain awaiting, fear of life and self.

Angel

2003-11-03T06:23:10-08:00

Author: Zilindico
Category: Fantasy
Language: English, Fiction Rated: T
Genres: Angst/Suspense
Chapters: 1, Words: 158, Reviews: 2 Updated: 11-3-03, Published: 11-3-03
Status: Complete

A glimpse at beauty leading to transformation, a change of heart once thought unreachable.

Battle

2003-11-03T06:21:48-08:00

Author: Zilindico
Category: Fantasy
Language: English, Fiction Rated: T
Genres: Angst/Suspense
Chapters: 1, Words: 93, Reviews: 1 Updated: 11-3-03, Published: 11-3-03
Status: Complete

A warrior's battle, a fight to the death, a final chance to survive.